Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Seeing is Believing
Today was the day of the big ultrasound. I have been extremely nervous about it for the last week or so. With both pregnancies, the babies have not been big movers early on, so while I have felt little movements, there have been no huge kicks or anything yet. Also, when I was pregnant with Jack, Jay was still doing OB and we could go in and do ultrasounds pretty much whenever we wanted. He was a very photographed baby, even before he was born. This time, though, I haven't laid eyes on the baby since November. The small movements and lack of updated visual evidence led me to decide last night at about 3:00 that I wasn't actually pregnant, and instead was suffering from false pregnancy. "Wow," I thought. "Not only will I have to tell people that I'm not really pregnant, I'm going to have to tell them I have a serious mental problem, too. This isn't good." So imagine my relief when, lo and behold, the ultrasound showed that there is actually a baby in there. Phew. That was gonna be awkward. And now you all have further evidence that pregnancy messes with my mind.